Emo Video

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

My Muse

Stella, my muse. I shall have the strictest and highest of expectations for you.

This time, im gonna make i dont hold back. Im gonna push myself and make sure i let myself go. You will remember Stella. I will make sure you do.

Lonely Life

Yesterday Phoebe asked me what my class was doing for valentine's day.

I told her that our class was going out for dinner together.

She asked, "EH, your class got no couples meh?"

I didn't know what to answer.

That day you asked me who would be sad at your funeral.

And i didn't give you a straight and honest answer.

So i'll tell you my answer now.

I would.

Becoz life is not forever. Nothing is.

I've drilled that fact in me for a long time now.

But i can't bear the thought that i might lose you tmr.

And that i only tell the truth at your funeral.